• New sneakers. Who dis?

    Monday, January 11, 2021 Permalink

    I have new sneakers. I know that’s not a big deal for most people. Indeed once it wouldn’t have been for me either. When I was a regular gym-goer and exerciser I used to get new sneakers (aka: sandshoes, runners, joggers) each year. I was – back then – a Nike addict so the brand was usually a no-brainer and often I had several pairs, cross-trainers for sport or gym classes; and running shoes for… well for walking.

    Regular readers would know however that my exercise regime has been sporadic over the last decade (or two). When I’m on a fitness roll – as I was before my seachange – I attended gym classes 4-5 days a week. And sometimes walked as well.

    Of course since then, I’ve basically done SFA.

  • Half full or half empty?

    Saturday, January 2, 2021 Permalink

    [TW: Disordered-eating]

    I want something from food that it’s not giving me.

    It’s been two years since I was employed full-time and I’m fairly sure I’ve spent most of that eating. In fact, it increasingly feels as if I am constantly scouring my cupboard and fridge for fodder but it’s finally come to a head.

    Because nothing is tasty enough. Fulfilling enough. Nothing lasts long enough.

    I often feel uncomfortably full. Over-sated but unsatisfied.

  • Post hoc fallacy – exercise, fitness and ageing

    Monday, November 16, 2020 Permalink

    I was going to call this Post Hoc, Ergo Propter Hoc but the title I’ve used is an abbreviation of that. Apparently. It’s a phrase I only know from watching The West Wing. I don’t think it’s actually the right phrase for what I’m trying to say here, but the only other one I can think of is something from the lessons we had at school when computers were first being introduced in the mid 1980s… IF <something> THEN <something else>. Clear as mud?

    Which doesn’t bring me to my point which is actually about exercise, fitness and ageing.

    I started going to over-50s exercise classes a couple of months ago. My main motivating factor was that they were being held IN MY SUBURB…. or at least the neighbouring one. Small group, low impact, inexpensive. So, perfect.

  • Exorcising the exercise demons

    Monday, July 13, 2020 Permalink

    See what I did there? In that title? Anyone who read my (former) Diet Schmiet blog knows food, fitness, exercise and I have a long and tumultuous history. You wouldn’t know it now but I was fairly athletic when young. I played representative basketball and netball and at one point exercised obsessively for hours a day.

  • Self-care: cutting yourself some slack

    Monday, August 26, 2019 Permalink

    I was struggling a little on the weekend. There was nothing major, just a few things colliding Bermuda Triangle-style making me edgy and irritable. The ongoing unemployment thing is obviously ever-present… as it’s almost a year since I finished my contract. Interestingly a similar position has come up with the same government agency but my confidence isn’t quite what it was, and I continue to ponder on how I was perceived.

  • Better stronger and healthier

    Wednesday, October 17, 2018 Permalink

    Completely irrelevant backstory: I developed an irrational hatred of men (anyone, but mostly men) with clefts in their chins because when I was at University (living at a residential college) a guy – who was perfectly nice to me – made a comment that has stayed with me. It was during a game of netball and I was an okay player so I’m assuming he was just trying to be funny when he said…. “We’ve made her better, stronger, fatter than she’s ever been before….”

    Fuckwit. 

  • Not being defined by our struggle

    Thursday, October 19, 2017 Permalink

    Last year I had weight loss surgery. I’ve talked about it briefly here and there and I temporarily opened a separate Instagram account so I could share stuff and follow similar accounts. But – before starting I knew that account would be short lived. I know myself pretty well you see and knew that it would take over my life if I let it. And I did not want my life to be about my weight loss surgery, as it had been (perhaps still is) about food and weight and so forth. (Indeed, I eventually ditched my Diet Schmiet blog for that exact reason!)

    I DID NOT WANT IT TO DEFINE ME.

  • Contentment, happiness and joy

    Tuesday, January 10, 2017 Permalink

    I’ve written before about my views on contentment vs happiness. The former, I think, is some sort of internally-generated, semi-permanent state of being, whereas the latter comes and goes.

    I’ve been thinking more and more about this for a few reasons lately.

  • Realisations and transformation

    Thursday, December 8, 2016 Permalink

    I listened to Kelly and Brooke’s ‘slow realisations’ Let it Be podcast when I went for a walk last Saturday. The subject came up, they said, because someone in their Facebook group had mentioned their ‘a-ha’ moment came after years of therapy and journalling and wondered if there was some way of fast-tracking these lightbulb moments.