• Not working from home

    Sunday, July 31, 2022 Permalink

    I spent a couple of weekdays at my mother’s last week. I haven’t worked much from her place since starting my full-time gig as she didn’t really have reliable wifi until a few months ago. And since then I’ve mostly been there on weekends or on brief overnight visits.

    But for various reasons I decided on having a couple of full days at her place. We bought a new desk for her spare room last year, so it’s not like I’m hogging her dining table or we’re in each other’s way.

  • How we spend our days – boredom vs apathy

    Saturday, July 23, 2022 Permalink

    There’s a quote by Annie Dillard that goes, ‘How we spend our days is of course how we spend our lives.’

    It popped into my head this morning. Or at least a related version around how I ‘spend’ my time. (Or not as it happens!)

    Unfortunately I wasn’t feeling philosophical. Rather I was wandering aimlessly around my house wondering what I could, or should, be doing (other than eating).

    It occurred to me that I’ve forgotten how I spend my time. Or I’ve forgotten how TO spend time.

  • Halfway happy – breeze blocks and bathrooms

    Tuesday, July 5, 2022 Permalink

    Facebook reminded me this morning that – on this day last year – I wrote an almost upbeat post after what felt like months (years) of wallowing.

    I’ve been thinking lately about the small things that make me happy – getting my house cleaned last week (ie. having a clean house), having my lawn freshly-mown, relief I work-from-home and don’t need to travel to work in this constant rain. Not to mention the relief (that) I have a job.

    Today I decided I’m ‘halfway happy’ and have been pondering whether they outweigh the negative stuff. For me at the moment it’s guilt over my lack of exercise, unhealthy dietary habits, general malaise when I should just be doing ‘more’.

  • Life lessons from the not-that-wild West

    Monday, June 20, 2022 Permalink

    I’ve recently spent almost three weeks on the other side of the country. Literally about as far as I could go from my Queensland coastline… traversing central and western Australia to the West Kimberley. It was a work trip of course. Someone was on leave and I’d been asked to help out in their absence.

    I knew it was going to be a challenging time. The office was due to move and one of our projects was being transitioned to another organisation. Unfortunately it was even more tumultuous as the much-awaited move to nicer surroundings was cancelled. So… there were quite a few disappointments to manage while I was there. And a lot of (understandable) frustration.

    The time away did however step me outside of my comfort zone a little and give me some time to reflect.

  • Prevaricating

    Thursday, April 14, 2022 Permalink

    I’d basically decided two weeks ago that I would indeed go to England in late July to attend the Old Peculier Crime Writers Festival. I decided it was a no-brainer. “Life’s short!” I told myself as I contemplated the idea of a 2-3 week holiday to look forward to. I sent an email to the organisers to book an accommodation package for the festival.

    And then I checked some Covid-related insurance information. Read some fine-print. It seems not everything is covered and I pondered the likelihood of something unforeseen happening before then, or while I’m away.

  • Life lately – March 2022

    Monday, March 28, 2022 Permalink

    My posts have been few and far between of late. Particularly my non-bookish posts, but even the book reviews.

    I guess I’m still finding some balance though I’ve now been in my ‘new’ job for over 4 months. The uncertainty or unease I wrote about early this month remains but I’m trying to be more accepting of my moods and responses. Most of which are only evident to others because I share them publicly rather than grappling with them in silence. I’m not sure which is better. I know I get frustrated with those who do nothing but whinge, but then again we all know that many only share the good on social media and their lives seem charmed. Enviable, but also inaccessible in some ways.

    Anyhoo, my blogging friend Denyse is reigniting a linkup every couple of weeks so I figured I should share something today and am going with the usual ‘check-in’ post.

  • Spiralling

    Wednesday, March 9, 2022 Permalink

    Dear Diary

    Entries like this seem to have become increasingly regular over the past 3 or 4 years. Any resilience I once had seems to have diminished to the point that the smallest thing can send me over the edge. I’ve always been a catastrophiser, but usually know better and rein in my overthinking. I can logically work my way through the dark thoughts or sense of overwhelm and even laugh at myself for being such a drama queen.

  • Life lately – January 2022

    Monday, January 31, 2022 Permalink

    I can’t decide whether January felt like it lasted a year, or if it flew by? A mixture of both I suspect, depending on my mood on any particular day.

    In some ways it felt like an extension of the last couple of years. Covid uncertainty along shortages of stuff (like rapid antigen tests, panadol and toilet paper – AGAIN!). Plus the normal-plentiful things. Gluten-free bread shelves, for example have been empty for a few weeks.