• Vulnerability and intimacy

    Thursday, July 20, 2017 Permalink

    I woke one morning this week reflecting on a recent conversation with my friend Kanga Rue. It was actually a very personal conversation – for me, not her… cos it was about me (and isn’t it always about #mememeee?!). Anyhoo, I pondered and pondered some more before deciding it was something I’d like to write about… which of course allowed me to ponder just a little bit more.

    We were talking about relationships and intimacy. And whether I would / could potentially have one at some point. I suspected I’ve been alone too long or am too far gone to allow a man into my life. My friend however, thought it was possible but suggested (nicely) that I’d have to let myself be vulnerable.

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  • Past lives, unrequited potential and mediocrity

    Thursday, July 13, 2017 Permalink

    I couldn’t decide what to write about today. A few ideas popped into my head, but none seemed fully formed. Until I realised there was a common thread running through all of them. One of unrequited potential and mediocrity. Well, kinda…

    It all started yesterday morning as I woke up from a dream… *insert wavy vision and dream sequence as seen on 1980s TV here*

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  • Change, dreams and the art of procrastination

    Thursday, July 6, 2017 Permalink

    Those who’ve been regular visitors to my site over some time will not be surprised to know I tend to ponder over things. I’ll read something – like this piece from Tiny Buddha – and I’ll bookmark it on my phone or computer while it marinates in my mind a little. Or a lot.

    The article in question is about change and procrastination and as the queen of the latter it really hit home. 

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  • Starting over

    Monday, July 3, 2017 Permalink

    I was going to do a ‘taking stock’ post in line with Denyse Whelan’s link-up topic for today. In fact I even started it and prepared to regale you with tales of why I hate my hair and my new addiction to white chocolate.

    I really only plan to do one non-book-related post each week but I’m posting today as it’s Denyse’s last link-up before she takes a break for treatment for mouth (oral cavity) cancer. I hate that this is happening to her and her family and cannot even imagine how scary and confronting it is for them all. My own dad had cancer as well as other health issues, so I can kinda relate from the point of view of a ‘loved one’ but I’ve appreciated that Denyse has taken the opportunity to share with us her feelings and her fears.

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  • Worth waking up for

    Thursday, June 29, 2017 Permalink

    Some time ago I shared one of those self-pitying… ‘everyone needs a reason to get out of bed’ posts. I possibly joked about Vanilla Diet Coke but in essence was having my own little pity party about the fact I was single, childless and no one loved me. (Okay, so maybe that last bit wasn’t true. I have my mum. And friends.)

    Like everyone there have been times in my life when I’ve struggled to identify anything to look forward to, or get excited about. However, I’ve made some changes so the overwhelm / dread / sense of purposeless isn’t quite as bad. I’ve quit full-time work, moved, started writing, had weight loss surgery and so forth… but I also have to remind myself that sometimes we need to create those things (worth waking up for) ourselves. 

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  • A mid year check in

    Monday, June 26, 2017 Permalink

    I didn’t actually do the ‘resolutions’ or word / phrase / soup of the day / year thing this year. I did identify some things I wanted to ‘do’ before my 50th birthday at the end of 2017, but I really couldn’t be ‘arsed’ identifying things that would (as usual) remain un-done when 2018 rolls around.

    I’m still – kinda – on a blogging break of sorts, though seem to be now consistently breaking the break on a weekly basis, so figured I’d join Denyse Whelan today who’s suggested we do a half-year stocktake or mid year check-in. Or similar.

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  • Surrendering control… to Siri

    Thursday, June 22, 2017 Permalink

    It may surprise you to know that – despite happily adopting most forms of technology as soon as viably possible (well, except for Snapchat cos ain’t nobody got time to work that shit out) – I only used GPS / Siri iPhone maps thingy for the first time a few weeks ago.

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  • The 50th

    Thursday, June 15, 2017 Permalink

    I travelled to my old stomping ground – Brisbane – a couple of weeks ago for yet another fleeting visit. (I remain surprised that I despise going back there so much!) But I did manage to see a couple of my long-term besties and in doing so faced that dreaded question…. “What are you doing for your 50th birthday?”

    The last member of our (original) quartet, who lives in New Zealand, had asked me that same question on the phone the week before. (And yes, it’s true. I make exceptions to my ‘no talking on the phone rule’ for LJ in NZ, my mum and my boss. Though the latter mostly only rings when I’m at work!)

    LJ commented on keeping some days off aside for later this year, for my birthday celebrations.

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