I just read yet another article linking the lack of sleep to weight gain… or at least to a difficulty in losing weight.
That. Means. I’m. Screwed.
Yep, well and truly screwed. You see, I cannot remember the last time I was asleep before midnight.[blackbirdpie url=”https://twitter.com/Schmiet/status/313642771284127744″]
I’ve always been a bad sleeper. As a kid I’d be in bed before my parents and older brother and still awake when they went to bed. I’d constantly call out ‘good night’ as I wanted them to know I was still awake and didn’t want to be the last one to get to sleep (am sure there was some logic behind that, but… meh!?). When I was old enough to have a digital clock which taunted me with its glowing numbers I would watch the time flick by and stress about surviving school the next day.
Once I’m asleep I’m fine. Generally I can get up to the loo and go back to sleep without problems.
It’s getting to sleep in the first place that is my issue.
I’ve tried all of the so-called helpful hints. Lavender, hot baths, hot milk, no-technology and list-writing before bed. I’ve even cut out alcohol at night (well, that was actually for the diet I was on, but still…) which led to even less sleep.
I can occasionally get to sleep within a couple of hours, but at the moment that’s stretching out a lot longer.[blackbirdpie url=”https://twitter.com/Schmiet/status/315133373402185728″]
My best friend says she basically goes to sleep the moment her head hits the pillow. I cannot understand how that is possible.
At my best I toss and turn and can’t get comfortable as my mind races – far more creative than it is during the day when it’s supposed to be delivering on fantabulous thoughts.
At my worst I lie there irritable to the point where I can’t stand being in any one position for more than a few seconds; nothing is comfortable and I become almost irrational in my ability to lie still and quiet my mind.
When I was working I had a lot less flexibility. I had to be up early every day. So, like many people I used caffeine (diet coke in my case!) to cope with the post-insomnia malaise. Well that and chocolate. Anything to help get me through the working day.
Now of course I’m not (currently) working. I’ve tried to keep vaguely normal sleep patterns, but if you’re regularly getting to sleep at 3am and REALLY don’t have to be up at 6 or 7am, it’s pretty hard to force yourself out of bed when you’re still really bloody tired.
In reality, my sleeping issues aren’t hugely problematic for me at the moment as I CAN catch up on sleep during the day, but… I just don’t like the sense of ‘slackness’ which comes with getting up after 8am.
So… next week – no matter what time I get to sleep or how many hours it takes me, I’m planning to set my alarm for 7am (or 7.30, cos… well, let’s not get too keen!!!) and will try to get back into some sort of pattern. Wish me luck cos it could get ugly!
Are you a good sleeper?