Even before I officially started working from home as a contractor I worked (a little) from home in a less-official capacity. During my time with government (pre seachange), though I was never permitted to work remotely, I usually had to monitor emails and respond out of hours… or be pretty much available as required.
So… you’d think I’d be used to spending my days at my desk.
And I am. I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that (despite COVID-19) it’s pretty much ‘business as usual’ (BAU) for me. For much of the earlier part of this year I didn’t have many hours of work (just 5-6hrs a week) but I’ve had to do a bit extra recently in someone’s absence. And obviously the increased money has been great but it’s come at a weird time…. amidst the coronavirus pandemic, when everyone’s working from home and doing everything online.
I’m usually pretty good at switching from one thing to another and my ADD-like mind probably helps in that respect.
However, what I’ve noticed I’m struggling with is that EVERYTHING has moved online. It’s a novelty for some… participating in Facebook live sessions, online book launches, virtual events; but even though I desperately want to support authors launching books at this terrible time; I’ve not been able to join.
You’d think some light hilarity, creativity, inspiration and celebrations would be welcomed given I spent more time than I already should on social media and reading about idiotic presidential shenanigans and the like.
I’ve kinda had my fill. I’ve hit the wall at the worst possible time. Although I spend far too much time on Twitter – a platform I can binge on while lying on my bed – I’m unable to make myself available for a book launch, Facebook live session or even virtual drinks via Zoom. I really want to support authors and others I know and love but I just can’t ‘go’ there at the moment.
I’m not even wanting to spend as much time AT my desk and blogging or engaging via social media.
I commented on my Facebook page the other day about being in a bad mood. I was tired of everyone’s feeds about home schooling, keeping-themselves-busy-projects and social isolation and the like (though for no particular reason). As I’ve said, my life mostly feels unchanged, however as almost everything revolves around the online world at the moment I don’t even feel as if I can have a digital detox.
It’s weird. I almost feel as if I’m rebelling. Perhaps things will feel different when my workload dies down again next week and I’m not on a lot of zoom meetings and the like. Perhaps then my head will not feel as it will explode with just one more fact, figure, piece of online information or stimulation requiring a thought process.
Have you moved other aspects of your life online? Or have you moved in the other direction as I have?