Hating everything and everyone
So… I’ve been struggling a little of late. And I know my recent malaise is not unique to me. It’s something we all grapple with from to time.
Never fear, I’m not about to go wreak revenge on those who’ve slighted me or indulge in acts of self-harm any worse than those I’ve been resorting to for the last few decades (NB. Primarily talking over-eating and binge-eating here!).
Rather I’ve just needed time out. Or perhaps I still need it.
Surely you know that feeling – when anyone and everyone pisses you off. When you can barely get out of bed in the morning or function as a normal human being during the day. When you’re feeling alone and isolated but don’t want to be around people. When you’re wondering where the fuck your life went. When you want to rail against those bitching about their lives and tell them they’ve no fucking idea how good they’ve got it.
You know… That feeling.
But if course you don’t. You’re better than that. You’re nicer than that. You’re stronger than that. As am I – of course.
So… carry on as you were cos I’m fine. There’s nothing to look at here.
LaughLinking today. #sortof
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Gayel (@modmummymayhem)
November 10, 2014Oh I hear you sister!! Loud and clear. I went to the gym yesterday and think I scowled entirely through a 5 k run. Hope you feel better soon. Look after yourself x
Debbish
November 10, 2014Oh thanks. Good on you re the 5km run. I think my lack of exercise is just one of the reasons behind my meh-ness! (Of course if I exercised I would rid myself of the not-exercising guilt AND have those endorphins. But… *sigh*)
Char
November 10, 2014Of course I know that feeling. In fact my husband, who is at home as we speak because he did something unspeakably stupid yesterday and needs a day off to rectify it and is therefore impinging on my alone time, knows that I often have that feeling – being on the end of one of my rants only fifteen minutes ago. Funnily it didn’t make me feel any better to get it off my chest. Just made me feel like a bitch 🙂
Debbish
November 10, 2014Hmmm… Am intrigued re what unspeakably stupid thing he did now….
Lee-Anne
November 10, 2014It’s horrible feeling low, Deb, and while I wouldn’t dream of giving advice…be kind to yourself. Hope you’re feeling better soon. 🙂
Debbish
November 10, 2014Oh yes… ‘this too shall pass’ etc etc.
Ed @ The Tunnel
November 10, 2014I humphed around a lot last week too and (for the hundredth time) considered chucking in this whole blogging caper. But then someone sent me an article for The Tunnel’s blog so I’m still here. If it helps, I really appreciate it all the times you comment on The Tunnel’s blog. The internet and social media is too full of outrage and anger – hang in there!
Debbish
November 10, 2014I try not to be too maudlin online but often succumb to those tweets / FB updates where I’m ‘woe is me-ing’. Today’s post was a bit like that – the need to vent and move on. Sort of!
BTW I really enjoy your posts and love the sense of humour! It really appeals to me!
26 Years and Counting
November 10, 2014I was a bit like that last week – I just didn’t want to accept I didn’t have the time to blog!
Debbish
November 10, 2014I’ve struggled with a bit of guilt over my NaNo writing. I’m doing okay but it plays on my mind each day. I only work part-time so really can’t whinge!
Amy @ HandbagMafia
November 10, 2014I find the best thing for this is a really good belly laugh! The I can’t breathe kind of laugh. Urzila Carlisle is good for that- total hoot. You tube her, it might help 😉 Hope your mood picks up- we all have our grumble bum days!
Debbish
November 10, 2014Thanks. Will check her out!
hugzillablog
November 10, 2014Mate, there must be something astrological going on because I’ve been pulled into a bit of funk over the last few weeks too. I’m just putting one perfunctory foot in front of the other and hoping it passes soon. Hope you are OK xx
Debbish
November 10, 2014Yes I’ve pretty much been doing the same. Mostly I struggle with guilt over stuff I haven’t done and I get more apathetic (rinse repeat). I’m not even under that much pressure and it’s all self-inflicted anyway. #alas
Jo
November 10, 2014I have a playlist especially for these moments…Although that hasn’t stopped me needing a break from FB! It’s ok to feel like it every so often- it helps recognise the good days when they come around.
Debbish
November 10, 2014Yes, sometimes (it feels as if) they come around so rarely though!
BOYEATSWORLD
November 10, 2014It’s funky town here too. Maybe the moon is somewhere it shouldn’t be because I know a bunch of people suffering from a similar malaise.
Debbish
November 10, 2014Yes… perhaps the end of year approaching doesn’t help either!
Mark Downey - FULLHALFGLASS.COM
November 10, 2014I think there is a lot to be said for goldfish … every 3 seconds is a chance for a new start as the old is forgotten. And as Dora from Finding Nemo says … “just keep swimming”
Debbish
November 10, 2014Ah yes, that ability to live (only) in the now would be wonderful!!!
Sheila (Book Journey)
November 10, 2014GAH! Hate it when that happens! Hope the funk passes soon! Go out and take a walk… clear your head – listen to audio (always my remedy) or read a good book. 🙂
Debbish
November 10, 2014Sheila I’m yet to try an audio book. Must work out how to get one. Reading always helps!
Deb
Pinky Poinker
November 10, 2014I have those days often. Or I often have those days??? Whatever. I drive to work and think I’ll hide myself away all day. I get over it eventually. I don’t need a cure. It just happens. You are not alone my love x
Debbish
November 10, 2014No I know and I knew that as I was writing it. I had to head to my mother’s (in nearby town) for the night anyway so headed there early. Got a hug and got ‘grounded’. (And had a nap.) I think (hope) I’m on the precipice of making some changes and finally realising how much I need to do so!
Have A Laugh On Me
November 10, 2014Well that sucks lovely but I kinda hear you. I haven’t been able to stop over indulging and so hence I’m feeling particularly crap! Thinking of you lovely and thanks so much for always reading all my dribble….. you’re a rock star and thanks for linking xx
Debbish
November 10, 2014I always enjoy your dribble Em so thanks for making it such fun!
Sandra Kelly
November 10, 2014“When you’re feeling alone and isolated but don’t want to be around people.” Yup, I’m hearing you. Having said that I was out at an apointment today and ran into four people I knew, as I went from A to B, who greeted me with hugs and a smile. I went home feeling loved and thought of. Sometimes not wanting to be around people is exactly what is needed and we don’t even know it… if that makes sense. Anyhow, I dislike being told what I should do when I’m down and I don’t want you to dislike me so I’ll stop now Xx 🙂
Debbish
November 10, 2014Oh no that’s fine. I actually ended up spending some of the day yesterday with my mum (and much of today as I waited at her place while my car was being serviced) which was nice. She doesn’t take any of my crap! 🙂
Sarah Mac
November 10, 2014Sitting reading blogs in my daughter’s aged 12 dressing gown with funky monkeys on it cuddling my hot water bottle and drinking tea at 12pm – I hear you!
Debbish
November 11, 2014Oh… you know things are bad when even funky monkeys can’t lift your spirits!!! 🙂
x
Tegan Churchill
November 10, 2014I’m hearing ya! In fact my partner and I have developed a little mantra for days like these. ‘A stupid person is not worth cold pasta’. Meaning, that killing someone isn’t worth jail, where you will spend the next however many years eating cold pasta because apparently hot food is dangerous for inmates…at least in the section I was in!
Debbish
November 11, 2014🙂
Like it!
carla
November 10, 2014IM WITH YOU WITH YOU WITH YOU.
Debbish
November 11, 2014I gathered that. I know I don’t comment often but always read your blog and know you have a lot going on! xxx
Jennifer @ The Relentless Reader
November 11, 2014I’m with you, I understand, and I commiserate. Keep on keepin’ on, girl. It will get better.
Debbish
November 11, 2014Thanks Jennifer.
Jess
November 11, 2014I hear you! I am definitely no stranger to those moods! Take care x
Debbish
November 11, 2014Thanks Jess. You too.
Lisa@RandomActsOfZen
November 11, 2014OK, so I’m obviously not the only one! I’ve been struggling with “purpose” the last few weeks, and I’m just trying to work through it.
Be a bit kind (and selfish if you need to) to you, Deb x
Debbish
November 12, 2014Thanks Lisa. xx