Hating everything and everyone

Monday, November 10, 2014 Permalink

So… I’ve been struggling a little of late. And I know my recent malaise is not unique to me. It’s something we all grapple with from to time.

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Never fear, I’m not about to go wreak revenge on those who’ve slighted me or indulge in acts of self-harm any worse than those I’ve been resorting to for the last few decades (NB. Primarily talking over-eating and binge-eating here!).

Rather I’ve just needed time out. Or perhaps I still need it.

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Surely youΒ know that feeling – when anyone and everyone pisses you off. When you can barely get out of bed in the morning or function as a normal human being during the day. When you’re feeling alone and isolated but don’t want to be around people. When you’re wondering where the fuck your life went. When you want to rail against those bitching about their lives and tell them they’ve no fucking idea how good they’ve got it.

You know… That feeling.

But if course you don’t. You’re better than that. You’re nicer than that. You’re stronger than that. As am I – of course.

So… carry on as you were cos I’m fine. There’s nothing to look at here.

LaughLinking today. #sortof

40 Comments
  • Gayel (@modmummymayhem)
    November 10, 2014

    Oh I hear you sister!! Loud and clear. I went to the gym yesterday and think I scowled entirely through a 5 k run. Hope you feel better soon. Look after yourself x

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Oh thanks. Good on you re the 5km run. I think my lack of exercise is just one of the reasons behind my meh-ness! (Of course if I exercised I would rid myself of the not-exercising guilt AND have those endorphins. But… *sigh*)

  • Char
    November 10, 2014

    Of course I know that feeling. In fact my husband, who is at home as we speak because he did something unspeakably stupid yesterday and needs a day off to rectify it and is therefore impinging on my alone time, knows that I often have that feeling – being on the end of one of my rants only fifteen minutes ago. Funnily it didn’t make me feel any better to get it off my chest. Just made me feel like a bitch πŸ™‚

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Hmmm… Am intrigued re what unspeakably stupid thing he did now….

  • Lee-Anne
    November 10, 2014

    It’s horrible feeling low, Deb, and while I wouldn’t dream of giving advice…be kind to yourself. Hope you’re feeling better soon. πŸ™‚

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Oh yes… ‘this too shall pass’ etc etc.

  • Ed @ The Tunnel
    November 10, 2014

    I humphed around a lot last week too and (for the hundredth time) considered chucking in this whole blogging caper. But then someone sent me an article for The Tunnel’s blog so I’m still here. If it helps, I really appreciate it all the times you comment on The Tunnel’s blog. The internet and social media is too full of outrage and anger – hang in there!

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      I try not to be too maudlin online but often succumb to those tweets / FB updates where I’m ‘woe is me-ing’. Today’s post was a bit like that – the need to vent and move on. Sort of!

      BTW I really enjoy your posts and love the sense of humour! It really appeals to me!

  • 26 Years and Counting
    November 10, 2014

    I was a bit like that last week – I just didn’t want to accept I didn’t have the time to blog!

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      I’ve struggled with a bit of guilt over my NaNo writing. I’m doing okay but it plays on my mind each day. I only work part-time so really can’t whinge!

  • Amy @ HandbagMafia
    November 10, 2014

    I find the best thing for this is a really good belly laugh! The I can’t breathe kind of laugh. Urzila Carlisle is good for that- total hoot. You tube her, it might help πŸ˜‰ Hope your mood picks up- we all have our grumble bum days!

  • hugzillablog
    November 10, 2014

    Mate, there must be something astrological going on because I’ve been pulled into a bit of funk over the last few weeks too. I’m just putting one perfunctory foot in front of the other and hoping it passes soon. Hope you are OK xx

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Yes I’ve pretty much been doing the same. Mostly I struggle with guilt over stuff I haven’t done and I get more apathetic (rinse repeat). I’m not even under that much pressure and it’s all self-inflicted anyway. #alas

  • Jo
    November 10, 2014

    I have a playlist especially for these moments…Although that hasn’t stopped me needing a break from FB! It’s ok to feel like it every so often- it helps recognise the good days when they come around.

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Yes, sometimes (it feels as if) they come around so rarely though!

  • BOYEATSWORLD
    November 10, 2014

    It’s funky town here too. Maybe the moon is somewhere it shouldn’t be because I know a bunch of people suffering from a similar malaise.

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Yes… perhaps the end of year approaching doesn’t help either!

  • Mark Downey - FULLHALFGLASS.COM
    November 10, 2014

    I think there is a lot to be said for goldfish … every 3 seconds is a chance for a new start as the old is forgotten. And as Dora from Finding Nemo says … “just keep swimming”

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Ah yes, that ability to live (only) in the now would be wonderful!!!

  • Sheila (Book Journey)
    November 10, 2014

    GAH! Hate it when that happens! Hope the funk passes soon! Go out and take a walk… clear your head – listen to audio (always my remedy) or read a good book. πŸ™‚

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Sheila I’m yet to try an audio book. Must work out how to get one. Reading always helps!

      Deb

  • Pinky Poinker
    November 10, 2014

    I have those days often. Or I often have those days??? Whatever. I drive to work and think I’ll hide myself away all day. I get over it eventually. I don’t need a cure. It just happens. You are not alone my love x

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      No I know and I knew that as I was writing it. I had to head to my mother’s (in nearby town) for the night anyway so headed there early. Got a hug and got ‘grounded’. (And had a nap.) I think (hope) I’m on the precipice of making some changes and finally realising how much I need to do so!

  • Have A Laugh On Me
    November 10, 2014

    Well that sucks lovely but I kinda hear you. I haven’t been able to stop over indulging and so hence I’m feeling particularly crap! Thinking of you lovely and thanks so much for always reading all my dribble….. you’re a rock star and thanks for linking xx

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      I always enjoy your dribble Em so thanks for making it such fun!

  • Sandra Kelly
    November 10, 2014

    “When you’re feeling alone and isolated but don’t want to be around people.” Yup, I’m hearing you. Having said that I was out at an apointment today and ran into four people I knew, as I went from A to B, who greeted me with hugs and a smile. I went home feeling loved and thought of. Sometimes not wanting to be around people is exactly what is needed and we don’t even know it… if that makes sense. Anyhow, I dislike being told what I should do when I’m down and I don’t want you to dislike me so I’ll stop now Xx πŸ™‚

    • Debbish
      November 10, 2014

      Oh no that’s fine. I actually ended up spending some of the day yesterday with my mum (and much of today as I waited at her place while my car was being serviced) which was nice. She doesn’t take any of my crap! πŸ™‚

  • Sarah Mac
    November 10, 2014

    Sitting reading blogs in my daughter’s aged 12 dressing gown with funky monkeys on it cuddling my hot water bottle and drinking tea at 12pm – I hear you!

    • Debbish
      November 11, 2014

      Oh… you know things are bad when even funky monkeys can’t lift your spirits!!! πŸ™‚

      x

  • Tegan Churchill
    November 10, 2014

    I’m hearing ya! In fact my partner and I have developed a little mantra for days like these. ‘A stupid person is not worth cold pasta’. Meaning, that killing someone isn’t worth jail, where you will spend the next however many years eating cold pasta because apparently hot food is dangerous for inmates…at least in the section I was in!

  • carla
    November 10, 2014

    IM WITH YOU WITH YOU WITH YOU.

    • Debbish
      November 11, 2014

      I gathered that. I know I don’t comment often but always read your blog and know you have a lot going on! xxx

  • Jennifer @ The Relentless Reader
    November 11, 2014

    I’m with you, I understand, and I commiserate. Keep on keepin’ on, girl. It will get better.

  • Jess
    November 11, 2014

    I hear you! I am definitely no stranger to those moods! Take care x

  • Lisa@RandomActsOfZen
    November 11, 2014

    OK, so I’m obviously not the only one! I’ve been struggling with “purpose” the last few weeks, and I’m just trying to work through it.
    Be a bit kind (and selfish if you need to) to you, Deb x

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