Easily overwhelmed

Wednesday, May 15, 2013 Permalink

I’m easily overwhelmed.

It doesn’t take much: an email from some company offering advertising on my blog that may (or may not) be dodgy; dust gathering on my desk beneath papers, pens and other crap; or marks on my bathtub which will require scrubbing rather than just spraying.

That’s all it takes. And when it happens I tend to shut down. Kinda literally. Everything just becomes too hard.

Pretty much checked. #Quotes.

It’s not dire. It’s not even depression, just that feeling that – at that moment in time, it’s more than I can face. Instead of clearing the crap off my desk, grabbing a cloth and cleaning the damned thing I avert my eyes and start to wallow. Instead of dealing with the email or emails in question, I mark them as unread and leave them until it’s almost too late to respond. And instead of cleaning my bath, I simply ignore it (or leave the light in the bathroom off when I walk in there!).

Most often though, I flop on my bed in a fit of overwhelmededness… liked everything is just ‘too hard’.

Thankfully I don’t do it often, but it’s happened more than it used to now that I’m home all day. My day really just involves me moving between my desk and my bed – both of which are in my bedroom… which – quite frankly, could do with a dust. I can only think that living by the ocean is why it seems I bloody well need to dust and clean crap constantly. My old place wasn’t this needy FFS!

I would EASILY spend six hours a day at my desk. Usually more. I’m not always working. Sometimes I’m pfaffing about on the internet – occasionally with purpose (reading blog posts, doing stuff with my Facebook pages and writing). Other times I’m just reading online news and killing time.

I mentioned a while ago that I was spending an inordinate amount of time in / on my bed. Thankfully that’s improved a lot but it’s still more than I’d like.

I’m great with deadlines and HATE being (appearing recalcitrant). But before things become urgent… I mostly wallow.

I need to find a better way to deal with being overwhelmed OTHER THAN crawling into a hole (or my bed, in my case). Occasionally mania sets in and when my filthy floors make me want to cry I’ll get the vacuum cleaner and then, while I’m on a roll I’ll mop and clean my doors and benches. But mostly I’m queen of procrastination when things get tough.

What do you do when you feel overwhelmed?
Do you get stuck into stuff, or are you a wallower as well?

  • Eating as a Path to Yoga
    May 15, 2013

    I prefer to leave in denial, as well. Have you read Byron Katie?

    I am wondering if you need more structure in your life. Or, with your writing do you need an “office”? Some type of coffee shop?

    • Debbish
      May 16, 2013

      I haven’t read Byron Katie… I will google (him/her)? You are right about the structure. Hopefully when I find part time work it will be easier, but I did realise today that I do have a little structure in that I get up and write for a few hours. I’m less motivated later in the day. I also struggle after putting in a big effort. On Tuesday I had 3 paid posts to finish and after that I wanted to kick back and celebrate. It occurs to me I should have an off-line day where I don’t sit at my computer and read blogs, write blogs etc…

  • Natalie
    May 17, 2013

    Oh, i’m a wallower, I get overwhelmed easily. It depends on how I am as to what I will do. I usually will let myself wallow a little, but I try to do things that will be positive. I play with my animals. I sit outside in the sun & fresh air. I relax in the bath. You also have to take a moment to pat yourself on the back for doing some of the everyday things you’d normally have no problems doing, but at the time, have no motivation or that to do.

    • Debbish
      May 17, 2013

      Natalie, I love your comment about celebrating the fact that you just get the basics done. Sometimes the small things are really overwhelming and doing them – when we feel we can’t – does deserve acknowledgement!


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