When I grow up & why I blog

Wednesday, September 14, 2011 Permalink

Today I’ve been scouring the recesses of my mind for something to write about and came up blank. As you do. So, in order to procrastinate (even more than the hour or two I spent on Twitter and TRYING to catch up with some other bloggers’ blog posts) I decided to play about on my laptop a bit. As you do.

You may recall I’m in my hometown at the moment because my father’s ill and currently in hospital. Yesterday was very scary as he was weak and frail and could barely move himself at all. They’ve found part of the problem so we hope he will start to get better.

Old School

Okay, so their computer isn’t THIS old!

Anyway, although my parents have a computer (and prepaid broadband modem which I organised – and am now using) it is quite prehistoric, so when I visit I bring my trusty laptop. And when I say trusty, I mean old. Not as old as their desktop computer, but it’s at least 6 years old. And, until I bought my new shiny (well, not shiny – but white) iMac late last year, I survived using ONLY this laptop for at least five years. It was faithful and served me well.

Except… now I never use it. At all. In fact because my place has been on the market, it’s been hidden behind cushions for about two months, only to be dragged out for this trip.

Not only did nearly every program on here require updating, but the strangest thing has been the stuff stored on my FAVOURITES tab. And… it got me thinking how much has changed in the last year.

I’ve also had a ‘Why I blog’ post started for some time and so finally I get to finish that. (Actually, when I say I’ve had it started, what I actually mean is that I had the title and NOTHING else. In fact, I can’t even recall why or when I decided I want to write about it… but now it’s quite timely. Synergistic if you like!)

Live the Life You've ImaginedI’ve mentioned before my love of writing. For all of my adult life I’ve enjoyed writing, but until about 5 or 6 years ago, it only took the form of epic (and most definitely hilarious) letters and emails to friends and family.

Finally I decided I felt brave enough to join the State Writers’ Centre and enrol in an ‘Introduction to Creative Writing’ course, assuming it would be appropriate for a beginner such as myself. So there I was, a complete newbie, but – unbeknown to me – in a room with people who were already doing A LOT of writing, despite the introductory nature of the course. It seems there were a lot of aspiring writers wanting to be put on the ‘write’ (hee hee – sorry, I have to entertain myself sometimes!) track.

The course was conducted over a four week period on a Wednesday night and there I met a couple of women with whom I am friends to this day. It was challenging for me, as I am nervous about people reading what I write (in front of me), so I very rarely contributed my work publicly. But… it gave me a taste and I wanted more.

Over the next year I did a few other courses, though never really found my niche. I did a short story course, a freelance writing course and a course to overcome writer’s block. But… still, nothing jumped out at me. Finally a year ago I enrolled in an online Year of the Novel course. I had the makings of a novel in my head – which I’d never done previously. And, the online (lack of confrontation) aspect of the course appealed to me. I still had no serious desire to be a novelist (other than aspiring to a lifestyle of a drunken millionaire hermit living on the beach and writing all night and sleeping all day) but I liked the idea of focussing my writing on SOMETHING.

I didn’t mind the course, though the instructor went AWOL in the latter part and we participants pretty much lost our momentum. So, my Young Adult novel (crappy as it is) sits incomplete.

I blog...Despite this I wanted to do MORE. So earlier this year I enrolled in a Blogging and Social Networking Course for Writers, which the Centre ran. AND. I. LOVED. IT. Love love loved it!

At the same time I was just starting to follow a number of bloggers whose work I adore. Many are the mummy-blogger type (which has less relevance to me), but because they are just hilarious I love their work. I watched via Twitter as they attended conferences and received sponsorships etcetera. And… I wanted to be there. I wanted that life.

So I’m almost embarrassed to admit (for fear of people knowing my aspirations) that I realised WHAT I wanted to do; or what I wanted to be. Not a novelist. Not a writer of short stories. But a blogger.

I have a more-public blog (Debbish) which is attached to my Facebook page and more-public Twitter account, but sadly I don’t post in there much because I edit and edit my posts to death and then leave them as drafts as I fear they aren’t good enough or of any interest to potential readers.  Whereas in this blog… (in Diet Schmiet) I type straight into the program and my writing and words are akin to a brain fart. They just flow. (Mostly.) And it is a HUGE release for me. I can be myself. I don’t have to stress about the words being perfect; or even about being judged for what I say. Here, in this blog, I lay myself bare.  Which gives me pause for thought… Which blog reflects the real me?

Motivational Poster - BloggingSo, back to my original point: today, as I cleaned out my Explorer Favourites tab, I found so many writing-related websites – full of resources, as well as publishers and editors who blog. And whereas once upon a time I checked out those sites almost daily, I realised I had no real interest in them now.

Instead I follow the bloggers I really like for entertainment value; as well as those writing about health-related issues – of particular interest to me as I continue on my own weight loss journey.

So.. there you have it. That’s my dream. My desire. My aspiration. When I grow up I want to be a blogger.

7 Comments
  • J.
    September 14, 2011

    “(other than aspiring to a lifestyle of a drunken millionaire hermit living on the beach and writing all night and sleeping all day)”

    This.

  • m3lly78
    September 14, 2011

    Congrats on figuring out what you want! Honestly, that’s probably the hardest part for most people! Isn’t it just wonderful to have a creative & collaborative medium available to express your every thought! I daydream about being a supermodel or a famous & exciting explorer (like Shackleton but female and with a lot less wrinkles from exposure!) but mostly I’m happy with my day job as a project manager.
    Anyway, back to you….I find your writing really funny and incredibly honest, so I think you’ve got a fantastic future ahead of you!

    • rockafellaskank
      September 15, 2011

      Thanks so much for your lovely comments about my writing. I worry I can never get the balance between my droll sarcastic self and angst-ridden self right!

      Good luck with the supermodelling and exploring!

      Deb

  • Liz@LastChanceTraining
    September 14, 2011

    I love writing too Deb and I’d love to get involved with some of the courses you mentioned – but I’ve had stage fright. I think you’ve just inspired me to get a bit uncomfortable (yeah, even more than those damn 30 Days posts and give it a shot). I’m going to the Problogger day in Melbourne in October – my first exposure to blogging and SM.
    xx

    • rockafellaskank
      September 15, 2011

      Oh, I’ve heard of the problogger thing and would LOVE to go to something but am nervous…. I nominated two bloggers for the Sydney Writers’ Centre ‘Australia’s Best Blogs’ competition. One that’s hilarious (Woogsworld – was highly commended) and one from an old school friend which is amazingly professional and … well, just ‘polished’ (Styling You) and she (the latter) won in her category AND won best overall blog.

      I follow the happenings at blogging conferences etc via Twitter and am always insanely jealous! I’ve bought (hired?) a couple of Domain names from Go Daddy but am now hamstrung about transferring one or both of my blogs over to the more professional platform.

  • Karen@WaistingTime
    September 14, 2011

    Ironically I never liked writing. I was told I did it well. And many years ago, when I worked, even was in charge of our company newsletter because my boss liked my writing. BUT, as a perfectionist I found it never good enough and always a lot of work. I labored for hours over my annual holiday letter!

    So, I was quite surprised to find out how much I enjoy the blogging process. Often I get writer’s block. Sometimes the words flow. But, honestly, mostly I write the way I used to write… draft then redraft then edit again. But I am very much enjoying the creative aspect.

    • rockafellaskank
      September 15, 2011

      That’s great Karen. Your posts are always polished so you can see you redraft. I re-read (and supposedly edit) the posts in this blog but cringe later when I see a typo as I don’t pay ENOUGH attention. Whereas my other blog posts get edited to within an inch of their lives!

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