I’ve just realised that this blog is now two years old. Faarck, where did that time go?! (And how many times I have written the word ‘diet’ or ‘weightloss’ during that time!!!???)

Interestingly, in May 2010 and 2011 I basically weighed the same, which would be impressive if it wasn’t about 50kg (110lb) more than I should be! And – bizarrely – at this time in those two preceding years I was about to start weightloss programs (Weight Watchers in 2010 and a 12 week body transformation challenge in 2011). I’d make a comment on the frustration of still dealing with weight issues two years on… but given that I’ve actually been dealing with them for 30 bloody years, two years is quite inconsequential in the bigger picture.

I ended up losing a bit of weight last year – about 25kg (55lb). But I have almost that much yet to lose. So while I’m happy about the weight lost, I also regret that I wasn’t able to continue to get to where I’d like to be. It feels like a lost or wasted opportunity.

It’s easy for me to focus on the negative, so sometimes (as I’ve mentioned before) I revisit old posts to try to remind myself how far I’ve come or… as is more-recently the case – how my mindset or behaviour have slipped in the hope that a motivational spark is reignited.

Because of the whole blogiversary thing, I recently read back over some posts for this time in both 2010 and 2011 and I was reminded that I’m in a very different place now to this same time one and two years ago. I’m still over 20kg less than I was then. And… even more importantly, I’m significantly fitter. I went from no exercise, to joining a gym, to stressing about continuing to push myself and my fitness.

While I’m still a work in progress, I’m becoming more and more conscious that I have to strive to be happy with where I am at this point in time. I need to stop putting my life on hold until it’s perfect; or waiting for some magic number to feel ‘worthy’ of living.

In my last post I talked about ‘why I blog’. I said it was because I love writing, which is true. Writing for me is cathartic – which is one of the reasons I started this blog in the first place. Two years ago. So, I’ll continue to plod along, documenting my successes and failures and hopes and dreams (okay, I might have gotten carried away a tad there!). And while doing so I’ll heed Monty Python’s advice… and try to look on the bright side of life…..

Finally, you only have one day left to enter my first ever blogging competition / giveaway (it’s only taken 2 years!!!), which closes on Friday 25 May at midday Oz time (3am London or 10pm on 24 May New York – I think!)