The day started badly with me missing a pilates class I had enrolled in – though through no fault of my own. Before the Christmas break started I pre-enrolled in two pilates classes (today – 29 December and 31 December) at the very sensible time of 9.15-10am. I received the confirmation emails and marked them in my calendar. So, today – first day of new diet – I rocked up at the pilates studio, only to find the 8 reformer beds all taken.
The instructor told me that I HAD been enrolled in the 8.15 class, not the 9.15 class…. so shamefaced I headed home, having failed at my first attempt at post-birthday healthiness. Once home though I checked my emails and sure enough I WAS booked into the 9.15am class, so I shot off a disgruntled email which will probably just make me sound like a whinging bitch but should ensure I get reimbursed for the class.
The rest of the day has gone okay. Scrambled eggs for breakfast but only some chicken for lunch. I am now ravenous as dinner approaches. I have some fish that I grilled a couple of days ago for dinner (sans the chips which accompanied it first time around). I may, however, have to succumb to some diet champagne to get me through the night…. which I know is pure sugar and empty calories. Of course now that I am not supposed to be eating (many) carbohydrates, they are all I want (which I know is why low/no carb diets are bad). As per usual my devious mind has been manoeuvring its way around this dilemma and has tried to convince me that: I really should wait until the New Year to start dieting; or that SOME carbohydrates are really okay after all; and the low-carb option is irrational.
From memory the first few days are the hardest as I try to get out of the habit of huge piling my dinner plate with potatoes or rice, or indulge in evening treats of chocolate or chips. Of course, I have been particularly bad of late using Christmas and my birthday as a justification for decadent eating.
I need to remain focussed though, on how lean I felt just a week or two ago once I had reduced my carbs and was doing pilates a couple of times a week. I cannot focus on the fact that I have 40+kgs to get to my ideal weight; or 30+kgs to get to my goal weight… instead I need to use the AA mantra of taking one day at a time. Surely even I can do that.