Regular readers would know that after a lifetime of yo-yoing weight I decided early this year to stop ‘dieting’. In all honesty, I felt exhausted from 30 years of obsessing over my weight, food and exercise.
I lost 20+kg last year before my weight loss efforts fell into a big heap. I was happy with the loss and my renewed commitment to exercise and being healthier BUT, the cold hard fact was that I still had another 20kg to lose to get to my own goal weight.
As my frustration grew so did my re-reliance on binge eating and overeating.
I felt like I’d tried everything EXCEPT not-dieting.
Not-dieting, mindful eating and intuitive eating are the raison d’etre amongst many of those I follow and admire in the blogosphere. As an experienced and unsuccessful ‘dieter’ I certainly lean towards the self-acceptance and ‘health at any size’ bandwagon rather than the currently-popular paleolithic diet / sugar-is-evil trains of thought.
Indeed, the sane part of my brain (which reflects how I view those other than myself) recognises that one doesn’t have to be at their ‘ideal’ weight to be healthy and happy with their life.
But, I’ve talked here about the challenge of not-dieting while still being overweight; being zen about my weight and food and so forth while still trying to LOSE weight. I’ve been struggling to reconcile all of this.
The exercise side of things is going well. Sometimes I only do 4 gym classes a week rather than 5, but I’m okay with that. But… I know I know I need to make better food choices.
As things have become a bit more stressful in recent times I’ve been reaching out to old familiar friends for comfort. I’ve thought about lying (here) by omission and not confessing to corn chip or chocolate binges. I know that by admitting to waywardness I’m opening myself up to judgement, but there’s no point in my taking the time to share my words if they’re big fat lies.
Jules from Big Girl Bombshell recently started Weight Watchers despite being a proponent of intuitive eating. I particularly enjoyed her post outlining WHY she was making the call to join a weight loss program which – in some ways – went against what she promoted.
Her post was timely because, as it happens, I’m doing the same thing.
A few weeks ago I received an offer to trial IsoWhey Complete® – a weight loss program based around a high protein shake. Initially I balked. “God!” I thought, “meal replacement shakes, of ALL things! How unsustainable is that?!”
However, as my life has unravelled a little over recent weeks I’ve realised I need to rein in my behaviour. I need to simplify parts of my life to cope with the changes before me. I’m tired of feeling blah! I’ve been feeling bloated and uncomfortable for a few weeks. My carbohydrate intake has skyrocketed. My meals are way too big. I had 2 bags of corn chips (with dip!) on Saturday morning for breakfast (FFS!). That is not a good thing.
After pondering on it for a while I decided to accept the offer and I’ve been gifted a 21 day supply IsoWhey Complete® along with some hot chocolate and snack bars.
I’ve tried ‘shakes’ previously but as I’m coeliac finding meal replacement options which are gluten-free can be a challenge. Apparently whey protein is a high quality, low allergenic and easily digested protein and most of IsoWhey’s products are gluten-free which is a huge bonus for me.
I started Monday. My initial plan was to undertake the 7-day Fast Track program in an attempt to break some of the unhealthy patterns I’ve developed, although I’m now thinking of doing the 21-day Break the Habit program which will see me through my final weeks at work and the transition into whatever comes next.
I’ve downloaded the very-straightforward booklet with some meal suggestions, but it’s not rocket science. I just need to replace two meals a day with IsoWhey shakes and stick to low/no carbohydrate options for my other meal and snacks.
Evening meals are my danger time, but mostly protein options with some veges is very doable for me and I’m keen to try some of the suggested recipes. I’ll miss my mounds of potato, but I’ve been feeling so crappy lately that the change in menu is probably a good thing.
I’m now over 2 days into the program and so far so good. I must confess that I’ve been continuing to have some diet coke (eek!) and I did have a couple of glasses of wine last night, while staying within the calorie limit suggested. However because I’m trying to be such a zen and laid-back kinda chick I’m not actually officially counting calories. Each of my shakes is about 200 calories (110 calories for the protein mixture and 90 for 200ml of skim milk!) and I’m vaguely monitoring the rest of my food consumption.
I’m not fooling myself that this will be the panacea which changes everything for me, but it gives me an opportunity to keep working on the mindset stuff while addressing my behaviour before it spirals WAY out of control over coming weeks. Oh… and a bit of weight loss would be a good thing as well!
I daren’t ask my readers if you approve of my decision… but wonder if you can understand it?