I follow the blog of someone who, only a year ago, was overweight and unhealthy. I came across her site (From F*cked to Fab) late last year; and thanks to a 12 week challenge program (run by Michelle Bridges from The Biggest Loser Oz), she had lost significant amounts of weight, increased her fitness and changed her outlook on life.
I have to admit I have been reading her achievements with an element of detachment because she comes across as incredibly motivated and it seems as if she is one of those people who thrives on exercise and is constantly improving on her fitness test results.
I recently ‘unfollowed’ someone on Twitter because I was tired of reading how much exercise they’d done and (well frankly) didn’t give a fuck that they needed to eat more and stop losing weight. Her marathon-running ways and ever-increasing number-of-reps tweets simply highlighted my own couch-potato lifestyle and apathy. I couldn’t relate to that woman at all and didn’t want to hear about her (possibly exercise-obsessed) achievements.
But because From F*cked to Fab’s Ange lives in the same city I do and seems like someone I would like in the real world (AND she doesn’t boast matter-of-factly about her successes), I have tuned in regularly to see how she is doing. But it wasn’t until yesterday that I discovered that she hasn’t always been the upbeat powerhouse I had thought. She re-issued two of her first blog posts, which she had written two months into her first 12 week challenge and she talks about the level of despair and desperation she felt before starting. And, I could SO relate to those feelings.
I know that I should be able to relate to those on shows like The Biggest Loser – who lose massive amounts of weight – but given their controlled environment, it is difficult to translate to their situation to my own. Ange though, presumably has had to plough through work and personal commitments while still managing to step-up her exercise and follow an eating plan, all while adjusting her own headspace. Far more inspirational.
It makes me wonder if I could (or should?) try something like that before I succumb to visiting the specialist re lapbanding. Organised weight loss programs (Weight Watchers etc) haven’t always worked well for me. Though, nothing really has in recent times. The 12 week challenge isn’t that expensive and so I guess if I don’t get anywhere I haven’t lost more than a couple of hundred dollars and a bit of time.
The next challenge doesn’t start until late May (which insanely I contemplate, gives me heaps of time to binge on my favourite food before then!!!). At the moment I’m not quite sure how I will flick that switch in my mind to find the motivation I need to control my eating and start exercising. But I do know that I need to do something….