10WBT – by default

Monday, September 26, 2011 Permalink

cat cage failThe first two weeks of this round of my 12-week weight loss program (12WBT) coincided with my first holiday for the year. As a result, I’m hoping that the waywardness I’ve experienced over the past two weeks (for varying reasons – aka excuses) will be over now that I’m back into some semblance of a routine. It will be difficult as my father is here in hospital, my mother is staying with me and she and I are cat-sitting at my brother’s for the next week, BUT…. difficulties aside, it means the fun and frivolity of holidays are over and I am no longer able to justify the ‘treats’ which have made their way into my menu over the last week or two.

I have actually improved my eating and exercise habits over the last few days, since my Action and reaction post – in which I wondered if I’d overreacted to a less-than-stellar weigh-in and used that as an excuse to go off the rails. I must admit, although I have this desire to get back on the program and refocus my attention, I’m still a bit nervous about making the ‘big calls’: I will not have any more alcohol for 10 weeks; I will not have any more binges over the 10 weeks etc. Because, despite my amazing commitment last round of the program (even in my eyes), I still seem to be missing some of that mojo now.

But, I can’t keep harping on about it, as I have been doing over the past week or so, I just need to settle in and do it. I need to engage ‘robot-mode’ as our program’s fearless leader, Michelle Bridges, would say. Well, that and JUST FUCKING DO IT!

we are all in the gutterYesterday I took some time to re-read my posts from the first two weeks of the last round of this program as I decided I needed to remind myself of the trials and tribulations I faced – and overcame. And I hoped that I would regain some of the enthusiasm that engulfed me (perhaps too much) back then. And… I’m hoping it worked. I hadn’t remembered, for example, I lost 5.2kg in the first ten days of the program last time. And… I read up to week 3 and as yet I hadn’t gone over the 1200 calorie limit and had done my 6 days a week of exercise. The tenor of my posts is one of hope and positivity. Unlike my recent posts.

So, here I am. Week three of the program is beginning. I have 10 weeks left. Or a lifetime – it depends on how you see it. Now I’m back at work I’m hoping I can schedule in the gym classes I’d started before my holidays. I need to plan well, as I’ll be visiting my father in hospital each night, so, as far as possible this week I’ll exercise at lunchtime, or straight after work before heading to the hospital to see my father and accompany my mother home. Because mum and I will arrive home after 7pm each night and because we won’t be at my place (and I don’t follow the program’s menu faithfully), I have planned our meals for the week. So… in many ways, I am all set to ‘re-engage’.

move onAnother 12WBTer, Ruth, and I were comparing notes last week – about our apathy and the fact that we were both really struggling on the program. We commented that we could almost write-off the first two weeks and that for us this had become a 10 week body transformation (10WBT) program. So as week three dawns, I am hoping I can slowly revive and strengthen my willpower muscle and regain some of the motivation I had during my first round when I happily abstained from alcohol most of the time, and when I wouldn’t have dreamed of letting chocolate or chips pass my lips.

It’s a new day. A new week. I need to learn from my recent failings and remember that there’s still time for a new and improved version of me.

14 Comments
  • Julia
    September 26, 2011

    Deb – Don’t hope! DO! DO IT! You know you can DO IT!

    • rockafellaskank
      September 26, 2011

      Thanks Julia. I DID it today – went to the gym. I’ve dropped the kilo I gained between last Wed and Sat, so hopefully I’m back on track. (oops… there’s that word again… hope!!!)

  • Liz@LastChanceTraining
    September 26, 2011

    Hey Deb, I’m with Miss Julia – you CAN do this! Think ‘pain of discipline’ or ‘pain of regret’ – I guarantee the ‘pain of discipline’ pales in comparison to ‘pain of regret’ and subsequent self beatings.
    In your corner – you can do it!
    x

    • rockafellaskank
      September 26, 2011

      Thanks, as always for the encouragement!

  • m3lly78
    September 26, 2011

    just cutting & pasting what I tweeted you! “good post! glad youre back on the #12WBT wagon! simply love the Oscar Wilde quote 😀 “

    • rockafellaskank
      September 26, 2011

      I have to say I sometimes waste an inordinate amount of time on Flickr finding pictures and quotes. I keep saying I’m not much of a ‘quotes’ gal, but I keep using them. Mind you, most I liked yesterday featured the ‘F’ word!

  • Katy@KatyRunner
    September 26, 2011

    congrats on getting back up to your 10wbt!

    thanks for the visit to my blog too, that was lovely 🙂

    cheering for you from here.

    • rockafellaskank
      September 26, 2011

      Thanks Katy

      I made it to the gym today, even though my Zumba class had been cancelled I participated in a circuit class and ended red-faced (from exhaustion not shame!), so hopefully I’ve turned a corner… though I shouldn’t count those chickens yet!

      Deb

  • unreformed chocoholic
    September 26, 2011

    No going back my friend, 10 weeks and 10 kilos (I will be happy with five, five would be good) and abs to die for, ok not worth dieing for but smoking hot anyways, ok, at least better than they are now. We can do this in ten weeks (not saying how much yoghurt I ate today)!

    • rockafellaskank
      September 26, 2011

      Ruth, I’ll aim for the 10kgs – am sure you must be pretty much at your goal! (Well, other than the rock-hard abs bit, although…)

      It’ll be a while until I have a smokin’ hot body but I can keep plugging away.

      Gymmed today & will go wine-free again. So guess they’re all steps in the right direction.

      PS. at least yoghurt is mostly healthy (when compared to booze, chockies, chips etc etc)

      Deb
      xx

  • AnnalisaW
    September 26, 2011

    I know you can do this – you are smart and tough and determined! I had a rubbish week last week – like you, bedside vigil in a hospital – then rubbish meals and wine – why wine we’re worried about loved ones? I don’t know. But back on the straight and narrow this week. Later in the week will be hard. Funeral 🙁

    You’re in my thoughts – go get ’em lovely!

    Axx

    • rockafellaskank
      September 26, 2011

      Thanks so much for your support and I’m sorry about your week as well. I had seen mention of a funeral on Twitter so I hope that goes as well as can be expected. Take care and let’s both go get ’em.

      Deb

  • Karen
    September 26, 2011

    Time flies! You’ll be writing a post before you know it about how quickly these 10 weeks flew by. Just think of all you can accomplish during that time:)

    • rockafellaskank
      September 27, 2011

      God I hope so!

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